vexed.

woke up @ 530 today to play golf with dad n mom. did i ever mention dat i dislike playin with dem? dad is always lookin fer balls when he already has loads of dem. i ever mentioned it to him b4 but he said dat its thrillin to pick balls frm e water. lol...wad rubbish..but nvm.

n no offense..but i think dat they tend to screw up my game..i dun noe y, but i always play exceptionally lousy when i play with dem. maybe its juz e lack of competition ..but i doubt so. i din use to have dis prob. i think its mainly due to me tryin too hard to prove to dem dat i can play good golf n get sme of their attention. Dad has always doubted my golfin abilities and i juz wanted to prove to him wad i could do. n always ended up trying to hard. but nvm..who cares...i'll juz lead e life i want..FUCK IT!!

hmm..i'm supposed to feel happy bout e holidays next wk..but i'm not. cant believe i haven gone out dis wkend..no wonder i'm feelin so...i dunno wad..vexed? or maybe its juz due to mi missin jan..lol

time really flies..jan's a's are juz round e corner. 9 days to her first paper. and it ends on e 22nd november. looks like i won see much of her ard btwn dis period of time. oh wells..haha.
juz hope she does well fer her a's and good enough fer her to go to e business. ( its wad u want , if i;m nt wrong..haha )

yupx..i shall flush down all unhappiness n worries into e toilet bowl. u can pass urs to mi too..i'll deal with it fer u.