tired..like a shaggy dog

so tired..could have slept in camp e whole morning..but i juz couldn get myself to fall asleep. yeah..and so i juz lied there..thinkin of lotsa of things. i am still as happy as i was on sunday night. how i wish this feeling could just go on forever. puppy love..haha.

and yup..i dunno why, prob bcos i was too bo liao..but suddenly jeremy sorta got into my head while i was lying on my bed? why ? is it bcos i see him as a threat..? no no no..cant be..hw can he threaten me ? and i trust her. (: but if he really wants to date jan on 6th of jan , den i guess i would more or less be a lil worried la..wad wud u expect from a guy who wants to pick up someone frm her house when he never ever met her in person before? and his bike..dangerous la... juz hope he dun do stupid things..
bo liao life in camp..start thinkin of bo liao stuff..think too much sia..LOL

just arrived home juz now frm grandma's death anniversary ceremony/ritual ..wadeva la.. kinda sian. but i gotta go thru it la..i respect the dead. was fighting e Z monster while e things were goin on. haha.

when i went there, i could feel and see e bewildered looks on most ppl's face. i can tell dat many of em couldn recognise me at first. den ppl came up sayin i look younger la..look better la..etc.
of course.. i feel flattered..but on e other hand..it made me think..did i really look dat bad last time? lol
den my sis told my cousin to stop praising me..cos she's boosting my already high ego.. LOL...my sis lei..and she act said dat..haiyo.

and den..it kinda set mi thinkin agn..when i was kinda bored.. it was actually thru NS dat i gained back my sec schooldays confidence and in fact much more confidence. e betrayal and backstabbing during JC actually left mi kinda disappointed and drained of trust and confidence. yup..my BMT mates got mi to place trust back in friends..as in ya..to make new frens..and i was sorta e centre of attratction then..( actually now too ) cos of e bullshit, pranks and basically fun i brought to them..yup..and dats y i actually dared to sorta get to noe jan then. and it was actually thru NS which made me change my image ( as in my hair and all )..so i asked myself a quest. if i din change my hairstyle and all and still looked like when i was in jc , wud jan still accept me?

LOL..I AM SO BO LIAO.

sleep sleep.

nite dear. :)