ugh..y...ls pls pls pick up ur phone laarrrzzz... ):

was on exercise rapid storm last night. back only this morning. kinda funny lor...like things dat happen on tv actually happens in real life..but in e form of an exercise. too bad i wasn an EOD commander, or i was rather fortunate not to be a commander. i mean, e operation with e Special Ops force and police was cool. but i couldn help pitying e commanders with the pathetic look they had on their faces when they were done with it. and oh wells, bored mi juz tried to take a nap in e SUV, but my sleep was acoompanied by e dozens of mosquitoes ard e area with a constant buzzing in my ears as my lullaby. really wished jan could have stayed up to talk to me. but no, she has WORK today.

got woken up by some goddamned uncle who wants to paint our bunk. i shouted and swore at him, which i din really mean to. but i guess he deserved it, given e fact dat he couldn ask mi politely and disrupting my peaceful slumber. called jan after dat...juz had e feeling she couldn wake up in time.
i was right. she didn. talked to her fer awhile b4 she had to hang up. really din wanna let her..but i cant do dat...she has got.... WORK.

staff tan asked mi to go on half day off today. which i politely rejected at first. but persuasion frm e rest and a part of me juz made me agree in e end. i was half hoping to meet jan fer her break today. and dats one of e reasons i'm feeling so frustrated and sian diao now. she is UNCONTACTABLE!!! i muz have called her cell a dozen times and msged her once. but no reply. y cant she juz pick up e phone? have she lost it or wad. argh...
i have this bad feeling...this feeling dat i will be wasting my half day off today. cos i think i won be able to meet her le... i mean when is she gonna pick up her phgone? when she finish work? darn...and to boot, i dun even have much off to be used in e first place. i had 3. now 2 and a half days left.

GREAT...farking hell.

and once again...all bcos of WORK !!!

i hate this...i noe dat its near impossible fer her to spend so much time with me de, and work is juz gonna be part of her life at e moment. i cant be selfish.
but i guess i juz feel neglected.

i mean e fact dat we won even have much time together now le. given e fact dat i'm bookin in on sun night instead of mon mornings now. and she has church on sat evenings now. and i gotta serve dia damn country on my weekdays. and den still like dat.

pick up ur phone girl. i'm going bonkers. ):