unpredictable.. :/ Merry Xmas

i knew it..thiings will tend to screw up.firstly , pubbin was cancelled . i made myself available den a whole lot of ppl who always wants me to go out suddenly came up with lotsa reasons to not go out tonight. wad e fuck.

and fer ur info..i have been given four extras..yesterday. 1 by lt ron and 3 by sgt andy? to hell with andy man..fuck him. anyway..i am damn pissed with my stupidity dat i actually followed xiao bai's idea of gg back bunk to wait fer our assessment. and looked wad happened...we pissed nava off so badly, din have our assessment.. and picked up 4 extras. fuck..i dun care. i'll get myself outta it or i will try to delay e extras. damn..even in 36..no matter hw much i play punk..nobody gives mi extras..nobody. and if fuckin andy doesn review this matter..den its e last straw. he won expect anything extra outta me ... i will only do my stuff and fuck care about all other stuff. and i'll start appealin to be placed back in 36. to hell with them being short handed and all..i'm there to help them and i have to put up with all this shit. FUCK.

went to meet my dear jan yest, after her work. we finally wen to e choc cafe! MAX BRENNER"S CHOC BAR. its superb. it kinda felt like a choc feast le..we each had hot choc mug , and choc fondue and choc licks ... i tell ya..its heavenly. but its a pity we cant really finish everything. ( or did we ) and its not very expensive..still ok. so i guess one of these days when i am having a craving for chocs, i might b headin dwn there agn. with my darling of course. (:
den we went strolling around e esplanade..den to fullerton. we walked and talked and walked and talked..and of course..ee pictures! :D such a simple activity actually brought me so much joy. i guess its bcos of e company. yep..and we wnt home at abt 2? first time i stayed out so late with jan. guess many other more chances in future . dun u agree ? (:

umm..yeah..back to today. yep..woke up ard 8 plus to send sis to e national stadium fer her stupid gym training before proceeding for our dim sum. i dunno, must b e chocs last night, i think i must have woke up smiling la..and i couldn eat much..cos i was stll full? lol. yep..den met jan in town in e afternoon. sorta got stuck in heeren cos of e rain. den procceded to plaza singapura's gelare for our waffle! yum yums..slurps. i can still imagine how delicious it was. even more with her ard. (:

eric called to say he was grounded. not allowed to go town for a week? lol..wad rubbish. and he actually allowed himself to be?!
den elias called to say he wanna meet me at 10 tonight. dat was when my darling have left me and when i was heading for dinner with my family. Great..and wad was i supposed to do frm 7 plus till 10? and i'm alone fer goodness sake..i just cant imagine myself strollin ard orchard in btwn crowds on a christmas eve ..ALONE. yep..so i called it off..and here i am..

yep..met dad and mom at mandarin hotel again..fer dinner. dunno wads into them..finding an addiction to dine there? lol. yep..but its kinda stupid la..cos e prices of e food in e menu actually has increased significantly since last week? juz bcos its christmas eve..wad e fuck.

i'm kinda tired now..not sure y. and i'm so sian dat i'm at home now. i really want to join jan at indochine. kinda worried. but..haix.. i suppose i cant today. dad is sure to be unhappy dat i'll be leavin home once i get back. shouldn have came back lor...sian. and i juz received her msg tellin me dat she's a lil scared and even now, on e bus , someone is trying to get to noe her ? hell...she havent replied me yet.if anything is gonna crop up..i'll cab right down. i'm feeling kinda useless right nw.. :(
sorry my dear , pls forgive me. :(

anyway..merry X mas ppl..

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it was a mere 4 hrs..but it was kinda enough for this christmas. it made up for all my screwed up plans and all. e joy you bring to mi, it hard to put into words. u gotta feel it. do u? i'm really happy today. and i'm missing you already. hope u miss me too. :p

p.s dun believe e book. i only have eyes for you. :) Hugs.