Die...i'm sinkin very very deep into dis. but i'm happy. (:

met jan on thurs, before she went to church. actually , i kinda kept e book with her..e main purpose was so dat i could meet her dat day.
i dunno y, but a day w/o being able to see her feels like hell to me. lol.
had indian cuisine at dis place near her church. not bad. but we were like e only patrons...
makes me wonder how dey survive...lol

den met jan on fri. after i booked out. had to make her wait damn long for me..cos i err..ya la.had to wash up and stuff..shud have called her later...lol
den went to katong fer laksa...BUDGET wad...remember? haha. nevertheless..enjoyed e meal..had not eaten it since e times with brandon n co.
and YES!!! -hops ard- I BOUGHT MY W800i LO!!! hahaha..excited lor...my dream phone lei!! nice functions, nice colour. yesh!!!
sent her home...and jeremy called. lol.. of course , i shudn give a damn abt dat...
but...aiya..more or less will feel abit suan suan de...
guess dats hw i'm supposed to feel anyway..rite?

met jan today. after e goddamn standby bed. had to wait 45 mins fer her. guess we're quits. haha..but it was damn hot la...gotta admit i was a lil pissed. and felt a lil sian diao le...at 1 pt i was so hot i wanted to just take a cab and go home. but all these emotions kinda disappeared when i saw jan. u just make my day la... (:
tried to go on budget today. but of course..failed. more on my part la..din really wanna make ourselves suffer. i can go on a budget myself. but i dun wan jan to do it with me. i won wan my darlinG to suffer with me. bot lotsa stuff at candy empire. i mean dats alot if i wanna eat all tml la...haha. -glutton-
den had dinner at my place. kinda sad...e staff there couldn recognise their boss anymore. we actually had to queue!! -winks- (:
think it was ok la.. and not very ex also...middle range la..cheaper den our usual meals le...haha.
1ST STEP TAKEN!!!
den went shoppin with jan... she kept thinkin i wud be sian. but actually , i rather enjoyed myself lor..it made me understand her more..like her tastes and all...and also more abt female clothings..lol
went to coffee bean...saw quincy's dad..and quincy. lol..wad is quincy doing in town with his dad on a sat?? anywayz..had ultimate..same as jan..altho i very much wanted white choc dream..but i really need caffeine..lol
and den wad...JEREMY CALLED AGAIN. wanted to pick up e phone fer jan..but she picked it up le..lol. dunno wad e hell i'm worryin abt lor. I'm confident of myself..i trust myself..and most importantly...I TRUST HER. but..i guess u juz cant sit ard and dun care when u noe some other guy is interested in ur gf. and keeps calling her. i dunno...but for me, i cant la...but i shouldn worry anywayz..

jan
jan
jan...
i'm a lil moon revolving ard u.
haha..sounds familiar? (:

i dunno la..i guess its now my turn to be insecure le.. guess i was taking her fer granted ( a lil la ) at FIRST..but now..no way man. i'm sinking too deep into this relationship.. i'm getting afraid. i cant think of a day w/o her. hope dat day doesn come..but if it does..u juz gotta let go ba...lol.

i juz read her blog. whole lot of things i dun understand. but i guess i'm like her. i'm trying very hard to restrain myself..but at times..especially when i'm with her..i really really cant control myself. i love her too much. call me crazy lovesick or wadeva..i dun care.

i'm willing to give up anything juz to spend a second with her. even if its my life.

extra tml..sian..my sundays gone. no golf at all dis wkend.. shucks. gotta do smth abt dis.. my aspirations are gettin too far away. seems unreachable now. but hecks..jan is my everything now.