hehs...goody good.

went to barrie's party @ DXO. was actually quite tired, but i went anyway, sorta to give him face. altho i havent known him for long, we clicked quite well, so yeah..haha..always nice to have another aquaintance.. (: who knows i might need his help someday.

Oh wells, wasn very good at first..all were too obsessed with e world cup. dancing started quite late, when it juz started to get a lil better, e dance floor was too crowded!!! spoiler. but oh wells, we danced awhile before leaving after my Czech Vs Ghana match. E first world cup match i actually watched ( while dancing..lol) and i lost my bet. damn, maybe if i din watch i might win. oh wells, losses back to 27 bucks. i think i shud quit dabbling in soccer bets le. my luck hasn been good. (:

jan was tired, so we left. yeps..and here i am. (:

things getting fine again with jan. very fine after our small lover quarrels..hehs.
relationship with my guys back in camp getting better already. near e good old days.
hope things will keep going..keep it up!! :D

yawns time to sleep. :p

its damn true

GOOD GUYS DUN LAST , GOOD GUYS FINISH LAST

hey mel, u are damn right. damn damn right.
look at wad i've become...hmph.

i can only laugh at myself. my naiveness, my stupidity....my everything.

YOU ARE A TOTAL DISAPPOINTMENT

yeah..great. i've got my whole friday night ruined. totally ruined. sitting at home waiting for her pathetic phone call which she promised. carrying my handphone all around juz waiting to hear a ring. Yep..u guessed it. i din get it btwn 7-8, which she promised.

craps. this is juzt so not me. where's my pride? where's my arrogance?
I AM SO SERIOUSLY PATHETIC.
doing so much for this girl just to earn disappointment from her.

she called at 836 pm. shouted at me and accused me of shouting at her. totally taking me for granted. she's so dumb to even realise dat it was e echo from the toilet. I was bathing. yeps, i took my phone in, cos i dun wanna even miss a phone call frm her. bathing to go meet her. yar...and dat was wad i got. a scolding. all my efforts for this huh? i cant believe it, i'm like e dumbest guy in e world.
and she said, ' u can juz come down and meet me right?'

oh yeah..she's beginning to take me for granted. looks like gg dwn to meet her at night every fri night has made her get used to it. fuck..i cant believe this. yes..she's on her way home now. So much for her ,' I MISS U! wanna see you so much'
CRAP!!! i shud have known not to believe her. but i chose to do so over and over again. and i got decieved over and over again. it pains me to realise dat, and my heart hurts. Am i right to say i deserve it?

and this morning, she said she wants to talk. i told her to prepare asap den call me. for her own good. in case she gets late for work. 2 and a half hrs fer her to prepare to change and eat. she said it wasn enuff, so she din have time to call me. yeah right. i would be idiotic to believe it. i got so fed up with waiting for her call such dat i went to sleep..and she woke me up with her stupid call after i just fell asleep. GREAT. she sure knows e right timing huh? i was angry and refused to talk to her. went back to sleep and she woke me up again with her call again..this time during her break. FUCK.

im totally disappointed. dunno wad more i can say to her, besides , GO AND DIE? ??!!

hell, i dunno, i'm not suposed to. yeah but hell, i'm crying? no way man.

fuck.