HappY Bdae to ME!!! :)

I'm so happy today. really. really really REALLY very happy. so touched as well.. LOVE U SO MUCHIE!! :) MuaX!

Jan came over in e morning, or rather noon when she promised to come ard 10. but she arrived at 12 plus, seems like she overslept. Was inintially angry. cos she told me she wanted to sleep laz nite when she hung up but in fact went on to sleep only ard 3 plus. she lied to me and din keep her promise.

However, when she arrived, she made me feel ashamed of myself and very touched. almost wanted to tear..LOL. she stayed up laz night to bake an apricot cheesecake fer me. My favourite!! see, my dear dear so good right? hmm, and by e way, it tastes fantastic! i want another one in e near future okie? yumms...slurps.
Thanks my dear, hugs.

And jan gave me e swatch touch watch which i wanted today. Almost tricked mi with a mopiko as a bday present..LOL. she actually rmbed dat i wanted dat watch. thoughtful huh? pple out there, dun be jealous...hahaah.

Left home near 6 for dinner in town. Guess wad?? we went dwn to mushrm pot again. I'm still missing e mushrm rolls right now -drools- . LOL. and we managed to get a 1 for 1 promotion discount!!! man, Jan is really my lucky star. i seldom get to or in fact never got to enjoy such privileges due to my unluckyness. haha.

yeps, caught e 2125 movie of X3 at cine. Not bad a movie...but we had to sit in e second row, corner seats sumore. sian...and its a monday!!! for goodness sake. LOL.'

Bro got me a shirt. guess its some wakeboarding brand or smth. Looks nice but i think its rather expensive for a t-shirt like dat. feel so bad. ):

damn...i'm missing my lao po already...tired..need to slp le. nights dear.

Hope my NTU interview turns out fine tml. ):



It just set me thinking today dear. Actually, u have been giving more n more for this reationship le. its me who have failed to notice your efforts. Sorry to make u angry about it. The wilfulness i used to blame on u ya? wells...it seems dat e wilful one seems to be me nowadays..Sorry dear. I'll try okie? Try and be sweet sweet to u everyday.
Missing ya. Muacks. yeaff u!
-winks- :)

sian....Zzzz. 2pid bomb call

was supposed to spend my whole sat with jan after booking out in e morning frm my midnight swp at changi airport. Jan came over to my place and we intended to go out soonafter, after a few hrs.

stayed at home fer about 4 hrs before my phone rang. jan heard it, told mi was gibbye, and my heart sank. Bomb call!!! shit, changed immediately to book in attire rather den townish attire and proceeded to rush back to camp within an hr. hmphs. shit, my day gone. plans went dwn e drain. shucks. worst still, wasted jan's effort to cab dwn to my house. had to drop her off at bedok mrt before zooming back in. Sorry dear. really sorry. ):

took e standby team almost e whole day to dispose e arty shell found at sentosa. booked out at 11 plus dat night. pouts- missing my darling badly. ):

oh wells, dats when i decided dat i wld askjan to join my family and i for dinner tonight. no choice, pre bday dinner for me. have to go eat w my family. at e same time, miss her so badly, need to spend time w her, thus, e genius came up with such a plan. oh wells, intended to eat at some seafd rest. at east coast park but it closed dwn?!! so headed dwn to chinatwn but e rest. was crowded, had to wait. in e end ate at a rest in outram. but anywayz, e dinner went well. din feel awkward, oh , at least for me...haha.

proceeded dwn to town after dat. wanted to watch X3 but couldn catch e earlier one. so had to settle for e 10 o clock one which we tot was a lil late. so we decided to proceed to giraffe ( a pubbish rest.) for some alcohol but dey were closing le...shit, if not for our quarrel we wud have made it. was quite lookin forward to drinkin actually..LOL.

anywayZ, spent some time in starbucks before sendin her home. and oh yar, its e wee hrs of my bday le. hey ppl, wish me happy bday!! (: i'm gg to sleep lo! haha

On e verge..rocky...hmphs... ):

on exercise flatsword this week. tough. din sleep enuff. din eat enuff. survived w/o sleep for a whole 24 hrs (i'm serious, nt a wink at all) and a curry puff on tues. tough enuff, and jan juz couldn make it worse. it was nearly over btwn us on tues night. i was so prepared to give it up le.. but oh wells, things turned up for e better. lucky..i dun wan to juz let it go like dat.

went fer half dat off yest. pushed so hard for it. and had to sacrifice my half day NTU interview off next wk so dat i could spend e day with her. and guess wad? my dear jan never fails to disappoint me. i juz knew it. beforehand dat wk, i actually asked if she had church on thurs. she said NO. and when i got my off after yest, she said she had to go cos her mom msged her dat morning and told her dat its obligation musk yest. i was angry..but oh wells, she said dat she won be gg. i felt bad, but was glad dat she could do so for me..but somehow deep down in my heart, i knew dat it was too good of her to be true. she seldom keep her promises....

oh wells, had intended to watch X3 with her yest. i din noe she wasn interested till she came over to my house to meet me,but said she didn mind. i dun wanna make her watch smth she aint very interested in. so we spent most of the time draggin on to make a decision. till we had no time to do so. oh wells.. and yeah...she decided to go to church. SEE?? i told ya...deep dwn i had already expected dat. oh wells, i was unhappy, but was okay with it,after all it was either me or her mum who wud be unhappy. she chose to disappoint me. fine..i dun wanna piss my future mother in law off either.

okaay... ): she said she wants to eat dinner first before movin on. i did so, walked her out to have dinner together before proceeding on. while walking out, she told mi dat actually she knew of it like a week or two before. i was ENRAGED! i actually tot dat it as her mom who told her at e very last min. and it turned out dat she knew of it a long long time before. shit. its really shitty. its not dat i dun respect her religion or whatsoever. i juz cant stand e tot dat she actually dun place 'meeting me' as a priority. she knew she might meet me. and she never took note of her musk.

fine. i had no mood to eat. not at all. asked her to takeaway and go. and u know wad? she actually did it! she bot her food, took a cab and left. it was 1 hr before her musk. and she's takin a cab. i cant believe dat i'm cherishing every min with her and she's takin me for shit. time with me isn dat impt to her at all...and did i mention she took her own sweet time to come to my house in e afternoon when i rushed back home to wait for her in e living room. not wanting to go up to my room to change in fear dat she wud arrive anytime, so dat i could go out with an umbrella bcos it was drizzling. i treat her like a princess, and dis is wad i get, she's taking me for shit.

den today, she actually told me we shudn..oh wells. nvm. but i was unhappy dat she din tell mi wad she felt and told mi only now. okaay. and den she din bother to call me when i refused to reply to her msgs.

maybe i'm nothing to her. nothing at all.....

maybe i shudn....

On off today. kinda pushed for it. reminding all e relevant personnel whom staff wud ask to suggest who might be free to go on off today to remember to volunteer me. yep they did. staff agreed. but i dun have much offfs left. and so i went.. on a condition of volunteering for this sat's sweep. fine...since jan isn free till night tis sat.

MAYBE I SHUDN HAVE DONE IT. i shudn have went for this off today.

first, met jan in e morning. she refused to come when she knew dat uncle was here and wanted me to go out and join her fer breakfast. i refused. kinda unfair. she said it was alright for me to see her uncles. den y is it a prob if she saw mine? okaay, and so she delayed and took her time to stop at bedok to buy breakfast fer herself before procceding to my house. and yeah, by e time she came, everyone left! great...good for her.

hung ard home for a lil while before proceeding to town to watch da vinci's code. played ard with our tamagotchi ver. 3 at home. intersting with e infra red technology. our tmgc's can make frens!! when can we start families? LOL
P.S for those who din noe, yeah, i juz got e latest craze in japan, the tmgc ver.3 last sun!! yeah, crap.its juz an excuse to make it look cool. ): i was forced into it lar..hor jan? but i agreed to be force. -weeps-

okay, so we went dwn to cine only to find out dat tics were sold out. nxt available timing- 1815 i tink. lol, jan won be able to make it to church den. so we rushed dwn to lido walking RAPIDLY to catch e nxt show at supposedly 1615 only to reach and realise its at 1630 instead. and luckily fer us, it wasn sold out. but we sat in front. -.-

went in, but ran out to buy jan some cheese hot dogs which she said she felt like having. alright, den here comes e sucky part. she kept eating and din offer to feed me or so. okay, maybe i was so reliant on her feedin me and showering me w so much attention before dat i couldn take it when she juz stared at e screen today, not giving me eye contact , answering my questions blindly and feeding herself popcorn w/o giving a hoot abt me. maybe its my fault, maybe NOT. but yeah... I AM DARN UNHAPPY.

cant believe i went thru so much trouble to get an off so dat i cud be unhappy. farts. this is HELL SHITTY. no phone calls no msgs. she doesn care. den i shant. ugh. ):

Clubbin agn. finally :D

spent laz nite at zouk with my darlinG. kinda good. very good actually. never knew it could be so fun juz to club with my darling alone. yep..dats right! juz e two of us. (:

met jan after work, went to her house and spent abit too much time there before proceeding to zouk. in e end we reached abit too late. 12 pluz i think. and started e party late. but oh wells, we werent exactly in e condition to party wildly. we were both too tired.

dancing was great...exactly with my loved one only. juz me and her. not so pai sei, can juz hug and kiss her as and when i like.

RnB sect was once agn too crowded. and one guy in singlet kept being me. and he's sweaty and sticky. fark...dirty bastard.

alright. time to go. tired frm my stupid sweep. c ya peeps.

yay..hahaha.

off off off....too many offs to go for. too lil offs to spare. this weeks been short. one and a half day work week for me. feels like i juz book in to do standby and den..FUCK off..haha. heez.

met jan today during my half day off. went to watch poseidon. quite ok. worth e money..cos its 8 bucks only? and luckily it was, cos gibby called and interrup0ted my mood to inform me of this sats incoming sweep. and to inform me of my off tml. which means i gotta make a trip back to camp agn juz to get my stuff back home. dumb..but alrighty. but e movie makes u gan jiong. make sure u pee first. haha.my arm almost broke....jan grabbed me so hard. haha...ouch.

much has happened this week. celebrated my darling's birthday on e 2nd of may. felt so happy. haha..as if it was my own? lol. wonder if i would even feel so happy on my own birthday lor. i hope i do?? (: i hope u like wad i did for u dear. juz want u to be happy. my PRINCESS. :D
luv ya so muchie.

kenneth and me have slowly begun to be on talking terms again. sometimes, compromises do wonders. we haven been talkin like we used to. but i do hope things get better. but after this incident..i dun think i wud wan to be dat close to hime anymore. not a good charactered person. hmph.

been in discipline problem with e RSM. had to stand in senang diri position with beret on fer 2 hrs before a 45 min lecture laz fri and 2hrs with 15 min lecture yest. i was supposed to be rude to warrant sho. yeah..but up till now, i dun feel dat i'm in e wrong. but e armyh is fucked up. i had to show dat i was sorry. started crappin and acted like i was sorry. so yeah, i got away scot free. i juz felt dat i could really act. could try e showbiz in future..LOL.

this weekends wud be great with so much time to spare from now onwards. but i guess it won be dat great due to not being able to meet jan as much as i want to. due to her work and stuff. but yeah oh wells, wad more can i do? i have done as much as i could. e rest is up to her...

jan's out with her girlfrens celebratin someone's birthday. hanging out in a pub now. not home yet. get home fast girl...i'm worried.
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