:) casanova....

on off today... woke up at 11 plus.. ate 2 slices of cake before proceeding online. finally got dwn to playing maple story agn!! realised hw long mi and bro haven been mapling le...gotta update frm .22 to .24 at one go...yep. and i'm 45 % to level 26 lo!! den can buy my double handed axe lo!! hehe.

den proceeded to meet jan at bugis at ard 5..was slightly late...

ugh...i cant carry on anymore. feeling miserable right now.

anyways watched casanova. not a bad movie. interesting.

cant write in my state now..kinda saddened. bleahx.

............................................................speechless.

): ): ):

aargh!!!!

back frm confinement!! :D

i'm back!! ahaha..after spending my wkends in camp. feels kinda weird, time actually passed rather easily fer me...prob cos i slept almost e whole 2 days away, and due to jan accompanyin me on e phone and my nights out. but yawnzz, e more i sleep, e more tired i am. lol.

met jan fer 3 of my nights out this week. glad i did...u noe y? i'm gg back to selarang camp lo!! funny, i actually dun really feel like gg back now, i dun wanna be far far away frm my princess. hmph.. :( but oh wells, we'll work out somrthing right? hehe.

lemme see, spent wed at TM..ermms, had macs? oh yeah we did. rather full, jan finally satisfied her cravings fer mcnuggets lo! ( i hope!) i juz luv mcnuggets...simply goodalicous! slurps. :p

friday nights out...TM again?? lol...all bcos of e indecisive army, i failed to meet jan at bugis. farts. i so much wanted to meet her asap..but oh wells. had quite an interesting meal at e shilin taiwanese thingy. had mee sua...reminisence of e days in taiwan. haha. not bad...and i luv my oreo freeze. cool. :)

and yesterday, jan cabbed dwn back to jln kayu so dat she could meet me earlier. i felt kinda touched and happy. it juz shows hw impt i am? lol...wadeva...but nevertheless, happy happy!! :D
went to serangoon fer e 5 star hainanese chicken rice thingy. not bad...but i won forgive e damn waitress who forgot our lime juice. i felt so much like strangling her. jan and i were totally gg ugh...THIRSTY!! farks.

oh and did i mention jan bot me e pastries frm beard papa/tio glutton when she met mi on fri? dats so sweet of her right>? i was so happy, and so proud of e pastries. i was practically beaming with a smile when i went back dat night. and sorta couldn wait to shw it off to kenneth and all..but i kept quiet la..of course haha. but i juz made sure they saw it..and asked me abt it... hehe. i was so happy dat i practically wanted to lick e box clean and eat it as well. i'm sure e box wud have tasted gd as well...hmm...of course! cos its frm my darling ma...right?? haha.

i'm growing fat. so much snacks at home...and i'm munching dem before dinner, while having dinner and after dinner. FAT FAT FAT. oh wells, juz suffer in 36 lor. i'm sure i will be back in my old fit form soon after i go back. but..e prob is...IPPT is juz ard e corner. pouts. hecks la...LOL.

meeting jan agn tml..yays!! haha. gotta go bath le...hmm...on off tml. gonna go bath lo. c ya peeps ard man..hahaha. :)

glad... (:

gt shouted at by my mom e first thing in e morning...dat shrilling scream of hers, i really feel like stuffing my dirty socks into her mouth. my ear almost fell off my head!

yep...as usual, i turned a deaf ear and din really bothered abt her.

life in camp was as usual, BORING. din do much today except shifting of 3 vehicles and getting rid of e water off e canopies of e trailers.
all i looked forward was janyz janyz janyz. and my book out time which never seemed to come. lol.

finally got to book out. rushed of earlier den i was supposed to and met jan!! (: went to northpt for e nice nice nasi briyani. but left for causeway point when we had nothing else to do at northpt. walked ard..( tho dat wasn e pt ) and enjoyed each others company. (:

decided to go to e library but ended up just having a drink there before e library closed. and yes...time to head home. :(

really din wanna take e bus ride home. i hugged her quite tight..juz din wanna let her go home. i couldn bear to let her go. ugh.
she din wanna leave me too...and its great to noe dat. hehe.

yep..reached her home ard 10. but e unwillingness to part made us find a park and sit down. to juz spend more time with each other.lol....but juz to be able to b with her is worth all my time. (:

yep...finally, 2 phone calls ( one frm her mummy and one frm mine) forced us to tear ourselves apart and head towards home. my mom was practically shouting at me over e phone! looks like she haven got over wad happened in e morning...lol.

well...whatever. i wun give a fark anyway. -pouts-

bookin in at 715 tml...SIAN!!

and oh ya...altho its abit no link , but...
BASTARD NG SUX>!!!

2 mths...

18th. 2nd month into this. luving every second of it. but a lil stressed. :/
haix.

yep... jan couldn wake up this morning. just as i expected. lol...miss piggy. wanted to come to my house at 9. she arrived at 11. 2 hrs later den wad we planned. oh wells, gettin a lil used to this le la.. :/

so, eating porridge was outta e question le lor...but she came anyways. spent another 2 hrs browsing thru her yrbooks and photos and mine as well. hehe...so pai sei lorx. and oh my gosh!! she looks damn different from her pri skool days. haha.. :p

ate lunch at e coffeeshop near my house. finally introduced jan to e Mercedes chicken rice and ah hocks char kway teow! was rather glad jan enjoyed it lor..was afraid she wudn like it. (: yep yep..and finally got e chance to take bus 14 to town lo! not a very long ride tho...guess i wud be taking 14 more often den train frm now on..lol.
talked abt lotsa stuff. and i was quite glad i manged to bring e issue of religion and stuff up to her today. i think its better fer us to say such stuff nw den to regret later. especially fer us lor...i mean, we are getting so close lor. we might even have a future lor. so ya...better to say such stuff first. lol. seems quite ok to me...but i'm not sure if she agrees with my plans and all. but i guess wad i decided on was a win win situation..lol. :p

oh yeah..we finally got out tix fer e disney on ice thingy lo! met shaobao n JT while we were queueing up. den got to topshop @ orchard to buy e white bag jan wanted but it was outta stock. jan was rather disappointed. being her mario, i couldn help seeing my princess sad. so i accompanied her to topshop@ suntec to find and yeah, we found it! but turned out dat she's interested in getting e membership card..so we wasted quite a whole lot of time there pickin up stuff fer her so dat she could chalk up 150 bucks.

but it wasn really a wasted trip la, i got a rather nice t shirt at topman fer 17 bucks only...not exactly fitting...but quite ok. so i juz bot it! :) juz buy la...dun care lor...haha. buy first den say wad.. :D

had dinner at crystal jade after dat. e la mien was not bad..and damn filling lor. its juz noodles lor..and it kinda made me wanna puke.. bleahx. but e chicken soup was good. i kinda luved it. slurps. yep..was so full dat we almost couldn eat ben and jerry's as we planned earlier beforre le lor... but we did anywayz...i couldn help not eating lor... ice cream lei!!! but we shared. hahaha.

jan had to go home early today. her mummy wants her to. so we headed home after dat.

i was a lil disappointed...ya. but i was real glad i saw her anyway. altho e short time spent made me feel like i haven seen her aat all but ya, i'm still happy, tho feeling a lil neglected.

gotta conc on talking to janyz le. feel like theres a lot of errors in this entry. dun care la...haiyo. at most come back to edit another day. lol.

duty tml...my sunday gone. i need jan. help me.....~

i juz miss her so much... juz kill me. bleahx.

finally home..and finally met jan tonight.

have been missing her to bits... almost went crazy...really. i dunno y, altho its juz been a few days. ugh...totally too deep into this. i'm obsessed. addicted. whatever~. lol

had wanted to meet jan in e afternn, cos we were kinda expecting an early fall out at ard 2 fer our hard work of moving our whole bunk up frm e 3rd floor to e 4th floor. but...as expected, bastard ng foiled our plans.
he is a true blue bastard, a fucker , a son of a bitch.
he derives pleasure by sucking out e happiness frm others ---- in short , damn sadistic.
somewad like dementors.

yes, he din allow us to book out at 2 when 2 officers allowed us to do so. come on man, he's juz a damn master sergeant, and he's disobeying e orders of officers lor...wa lau eh, altho he's our direct superior, also cannot liddat de lor... to hell with him la...

well, yep..met jan after her work. after my short practice at OCC. yeah, still not bad. but i din realli like practicing in e strong headwind yesterday, bad fer my ego. lol.
ya ya...back to meeting jan..met her with her fav pure choc. i got myself a caramel drink of some sorts. yep, and accompanied her home. good, at least i won have to worry abt her safety on her way home.
i mean, i cant help worrying abt her ma, given e number of ppl staring at my pretty girlfriend including e 'ba chor mee drink uncle'. bloody chicopeh. i'll kick his balls man... ugh.

and did i mention dat dad tried to put a curfew on me. i mean, he nv really cared before, and i hav always been like dat. so y is he so meddlesome now? haix..hecks...i won care abt him la... sharks.

oh wells, meeting jan tml. c ya peeps. (:

A memorable Valentine's Day.... :D

back at ard 5a.m this morning... stayed out much much longer den i expected to..but yup...it was worth every second of my time... spending time with her is just so wonderful.

backtrack to before meeting her. left home a later den wad i planned cos i was too engrossed in talking to her on e phone and on msn. my life is just so full of her... haha. :P
yep..rushed dwn to tampines mall fer my bouquet of 18 roses...and they friggin to mi to collect it at pasir ris instead..wah lau...i was rather pissed. but oh wells.
cabbed dwn to fullerton frm white sands...quite a long ride..and some money..lol

when i was on my way there, jan called. my gosh..she reached le...and i was gonna be damn late... but anyways, i left my flowers w e ppl at fullerton and walked to esplanade. customised a bear w/o naming it and all. by then, i knew i couldn keep jan waiting le, so i called her to walk to esplanade to meet mi while i did e bear. -anxious anxious -
it didn strike mi dat she might feel a lil lonely walking alone to meet mi till she told mi after dat. hereby, i apologise darling. :p

yep...managed to surprise her a lil with e bear. we made e birth certificate of e bear and all together. Mario..yupz...dats e name of our child. now...she can hug and hear my voice everyday lo..hahaha. no la..i din really have dat in mind when i decided to give her dat bear. juz tot it wud be nice. :)

i'm nt sure, but i tot i wud like to really disappoin her by turning up w/o flowers. not sure if i did. but i guess more or less she would feel dat she lacked somethin on our way to fullerton. almost evrygirl, with or w/o a guy had at least a rose in their hand. when we reached there, i guess she wud most likely think game over le..def no flowers lo...

i couldn help grinning to myself at wad i wud have in store fer her.

i conjured up a small lie to make her sit on one of e chairs to wait fer mi while i checked out my reservation. i returned with e bouquet of flowers and i muz say...i surprised her. YAY! haha... yep.. -grins-
i was so happy dat i made her smile. her smile makes my day. :)

choc buffet wasn a bad idea. quite nice actually. but i think it was a lil too much ba... din really take long fer both of us to get real sick of chocs..altho we r both ultra choc lovers. but well, its really too much dat my throat hurts after all e sweet delicacies. luckily, they had coffee, sorta made u feel much better after all e sweet stuff ( dat is if u dun add sugar la.. ) . e sparkling wine they offered kinda sucked. it tastes like beer. carlsberg to b precise.. not dat i dun like beer.. but having wine dat tastes like beer kinda puts me off. -bleahs-

walked a lil before taking a seat right before e s'pore river. kinda nice actually..nice environment and all... and it wasn too warm after taking a seat. yep. -winks- ;)

she's e first girlfriend to spend valentine's Day with me. rachel din laz thru V day. but i doubt even if we did, its gonna be nowhere near this one. guess its because i really love janyz. alot alot alot. too much dat i'm beginning to feel afraid.
but oh wells...heck le la. i really dun wanna miss out on e good times i can spend with her.

this V day din really go according to wad i really had in mind. i have a whole load of ideas which i haven used. but due to restrictions like availability , time , money and all.. i guess this is e best i can do with wad i have.

reaally look forward to spending this day with her next yr, next next yr, next next next year... in fact every year la...haha. :)

oh yar.. did i mention she made chocs fer mi? sweet right? haha...of course la..janyz is e best to mi. (: luv her lots...muax.
yet to try it yet...gonna go try now.
wait fer my review on it on my nxt entry!! prob this friday ba..haha.

but anyways, wadever she give mi, i would like it. and i'm sure it wud taste very very good. to me, at least. :D
luv ya lots... hugs.

i'll give u everything i have juz to make u smile.

I Not StupiD!!

booked in today..and i'm out now. in preparation fer tml.

excited excited. -grins-

oh yar, jan passed her final theory test lo! i knew she wud be able to do it !! (:

met jan after i book out. kinda felt bad actually...i scared her mummy angry la...as in she's always out with me lor.. lol.

mmm..ya..watched i not stupid 2 at tampines. was a good movie, and fancy it coming frm a singaporean. i give it 2 thumbs up!
and i feel dat my parents shud really go watch it. kinda sad actually...i feel so much like e role shawn lee plays lor. my parents seldom praise me. in fact, my dad puts me dwn instead. wadever i achieve, its always not good enuff.
its like as tho my sis is all they care for. wadever she does , its RIGHT. its GOOD.
fer me...everything juz SUCKS.
neglected neglected.

met her cousins when we were abt to go home. lol. they sorta said somthing like 'orh, ur bf ah? get caught lo! ' lol. den when she was talking to them, they sort of all turned their heads over their shoulders to look at me. defeats my purpose of hiding behind them. lol. >,< shy shy. haha..

tml tml...16 hrs plus plus in fact. (:

hmmm... :)

golfing dis morning..not bad... played much better den i wud have expected. guess i'm more or less dere le...

and yep..the monster is back, and more beastly den before. blaasting shots onto e fairway. feeling is juz plain COOL.
woohoo.

yep..jan visited my place today. i tink it wAs ok ba...but i guess it was kinda pai sei fer her la. i i'm sure i wud be pai sei too if i were in her shoes. guess it would be my turn soon. lol.

visited saffron @ raffles place today. nice place, nice food. e only thing i dun like is e indian scent floating ard e place. bleahx. but yeah..i wud recommend this place to pple who luvs good food. but i guess it wud be much more worth it if e 1 for 1 promotion is gg on. (:

i luv her. hugs. (:

here goes my saturday...

its quite surprising how time passes by...

and oh ya.. did i mention dat e mighty one juz passed his final theory test this morning? frankly speaking , i found it quite no kick. rather easy in fact. haha...not boasting la..but its more of common sense. especially when u have driven a vehicle before.
yay..gonna call up e private instructor soon. den get my license, and hopefully, my Mitsubishi Evoution Generation 9. in short, evo 9. lol.

yep..she met me at ssdc this morning , i was kinda guilty...she needs slp..and yet i got her to meet me before my test rather den juz fer lunch. felt rather bad..considering e fact dat she needs more sleep. haix..but ya..i still sorta hinted to her dat i want her to meet me before my test. and so yep..she did.

she has been tellin me dat she misses me and all. not dat i dun believe her. but i cant feel it. juz felt like she's ST-ing lor. wadever. maybe i'm wrong...

den went to bugis fer lunch. nothing spectecular.. juz fast food. yeah..but one of my better choice fast foods..MOS burger. yep..finally tried e scallop organic burger. hmm..yums..not bad. slurps :p

met elias at city hall ard 2. he sorta went ard with me to look fer a decent place to dine with my beloved this coming tuesday. yep..after much effort and sweat..and a small break at LonG John Silvers, we continued to search in vain. but but but..our hard work paid off in e end. found a nice nice place to eat. ;)
yay! plans fer next tuesday almost done le. juz hope everything proceeds smoothly..and i will be able to do wad i intend to do. ;)
winks..grins.

went to jurong to meet ma family fer dinner. den did some last minute visiting fer chi new yr. went to 3 pple's house. and collected 3 ang baos today. e last few ang baos i wld be able to collect this year i guess. after all, tml is e 15th day of e lunar new yr le..last day!! :(

golfing tml...w/o james. seems dat he dropped out of e medal at e club today. cos he felt dat he wasn playing well...i mean,,his 'playing not well' might be 'playing well' to others lor. he juz set too high standards fer himself lor...haix. james o james...lol

was talking t her juz now. damn..i dunno y..but she got us into dat topic agn. took mi some time to get over it le. and now she's back at it... made me feel a lil...i dunno hw to explain. juz felt a lil upset abt it agn. like i said, i wud mind..but not so after looking at e big picture.

and yes..she dozed off while talking to me. now i noe how she feels when i do e same thing while talking to her...and fancy mi doing it so many times before. ya..e feeling sucks. i'm like talking to her. and she still wants me to continue.i must say i repeated my last paragraph 5 times with no reply. was a lil pissed. wanted to juz hang up. but yeah..how could i?
and after all, i am guilty of wad she is doing also..yep. so yar.

:(

i dunno...she kinda bothered mi once agn by bringing up e topic. i guess dats y i got a lil pissed. i got stuff to say..she wants me to speak up..but she's not listening. i need to vent these things out somewhere. but i got no one to turn to. damn. this chance at e topic is missed..i guess i won be be able to say wad i want to agn. cos i certainly dun think we'll arrive at this topic agn. :/

2 months into this. i'm so frustrated. :x

2 a.m lo...yawnZ. :0

yay! wkenDs !!

back frm OCC. booked out at 2 today. early fall out... :D

met jan and proceeded to OCC to leave my stuff before proceeding to west mall to walk walk. spent some quality time at e library there. read about dogs and... cats..err...ugh... haha..but nevertheless..learnt some stuff abt dogs. for example, why male dogs grind humans when they are excited. errmm..lol. >.<

den proceeded back to OCC fer dinner. brought her to vanda terrace for e OCC's famous curry chicken! slurps..haven been eating it fer quite some time lo. was quite relieved dat she liked it. i mean, she's also a lover of curry...din wanna disappoint her. LoL.

den went to practice my golf. was ok..tho not as good as last week. but well, still ok lar. acceptable. but was a lil frustrated la..

yep..oh i forgot to mention wad i did with jan on tuesday's nite's out. we actually went to a playgrond to play on e swings. kinda fun...like back to my childhood liddat. in fact, i din play much on swings when i was young, got no swings ard my area ma...lol. yep..but e swings are too short la...for kids de. so ya..couldn hang ard e swings fer long. :p

doing my final theory test tml. hope everything goes on fine. pass my final theory, and get my pdl.

talking to her on e phone now. niteZ ppl.

KinG oF iDeaS

hmm..many ideas flowing into my mind. too many...i dunno wad to decide on. many factors to consider... place, accessibility , ambience and all...and most imptly, affordibility.

i have a damn nice place in mind.. its definitely gonna be a hit..and a damn great surprise. but... i suspect its gonna make my wallet bleed badly. been there w dad once. gosh...i gonna double check. hope i can make it possible.

another idea is forming up in my mind even now... so many...

but...how many of em can i really make it possible? i dunno. haix.

hmph.... ):

Standby force one this week. force com..sgt ren jie agn. Mr Civivs n Moral ed. he's a great guy..but as i mentioned..too much og gg by e book. so i troubled him w my nites off to meet jan yest and my day off on v day.

activation at 5 a.m dis morning, shucks. couldn slp after dat. dammit. but its rather scary lor..i mean, this wk, on monday only, there was another mode of activation. and today agn...god knows wad those pple up there are thinking..

looks like jan's having some trouble getting up fer her morning shift. had to call her twice yest before she could wake up. and had to allow her 30 mins to laze in bed b4 waking up on monday.
and today..haix.
i called her at 715. she wanted to slp somemore. so i said i would call her at 8.
when it was 8, i was at e log office. couldn make e phone call. and since my watch was slightly ahead, i decided dat it was ok to call her right after i reported to log office. when i was in e holding area first. got a lil engrossed in my conversation w wj dey all on e way up to e holding area dat i 4got to call my dear girl. n when i realised dat, it was 0815.

gosh..i din really mean to call late de.. ): but..haix. i really couldn call at 8 mah... i mean, after all i'm stll in camp, cant make phone calls anytime i want to ma...yup. but its still my fault la... i mean..hw could i forget man...

but it seems dat she's gettin a lil reliant or smth.. guess she didn set her alarm clock or smth. i think i gotta make her set her alarm clock or wad lor...i mean like wad if during dat time i was on activation... doing operation halfway, hw to call her in my gas mask?? after all, wad i initially meant was to wake her up if she couldn. dat is if i dun recieve her msg.
BUT but but...this doesn mean dat i find it a hassle or wad to wake her up. in fact..i feel happy or u could say blessed to do dat. hearing her voice early in e morning, juz kinda makes my hopelessly boring day seem brighter. i wud gladly do it everyday if she wans me to. (:

but...i really hope she won blame me lor..after all, i dun believe she din blame me a wee bit at all lor..she muz have gone like shit..its 815!! and wondering y i din call her on time. ):

i dunno..lol. haix..sgt ren jie wants us to move e tonners outside bravo coy. i really hope we won have to follow dem to range the nxt 3 days lor. damn..if not, not only will my fri evening be gone , even my sat advance theory will be gone. and needless to say , diminish all hopes of meeting her dat day.

still gotta book in tonite. sianz.. 48 more hrs to my weekend... endure man.

nice sunday spent.

din go to occ to play golf today. bleahx..altho i really hoped and wished to have had a go on e golf course. see how much my touch and feel for e game have gone down e drain. but well... had to go to erics house. he made it sound like i have to go lor..or i'll be letting everyone dwn liddat. yeah right. haha. but anyways, earned 2 hongbaos. so i didn go in vain. hehehe. quite paisei actually, cos i juz went to ah guan's house to wait fer time to pass..den get hongbao...feeling guilty la..haha.

dinner laz nite was ok..better den i expected. had a nice chat with my cousin. yep..and gosh.!she can really drink!! drank almost all e red wine we opened up. my dad was like huh? where's my wine?? LOL. den mom's side came over. e house was sorta damn crowded. din really bothered with dem. juz smiled and said hi to all. and said happy new yr when dey gave me ang baos. felt kinda bad actually, but wad more can i say? i'm not dat close to dem after all. :p

kk..back to today. left halfway thru WET DREAMS 2 @ eric's house to meet jan at serangoon mrt. due to some inaccurate info ( hehe...) i got off at e wrong bus stop. had to walk quite a dist. but oh wells, dun feel bad...cos its good exercise! :D yep...wet dreams 2 is a damn crappy movie..but damn funny , especially when a grp of guys watch it together. laugh until almost peng ah. gotta borrow frm eric to finish watching it lor..haha. but i dunno hw i'm gonna watch it lor..not very nice to watch w family de...LoL.

yep..went to town with jan. did abit of shoppin. jan saw dis nice mango handbag ( which i tot was nice too. ) which she wanted. but she din. haix..too bad i'm on budget now...or i'll juz buy it for her la... :( den deposited her cash before accompanyin me to punch more holes in my belt. at least my belt fits mi much better now!! :D

i had dis urge to watch movie today, altho now dun have le. glad we din. cos we went to eat at seoul garden. thurs, sat and today, altho dis is almost e 3rd straight steamboat i'm having, it holds a whole new feeling. having it with jan juz feels different. so pai sei.. i couldn even do e teppanyaki part properly..jan had to do most of it fer mi. and ya..i couldn crack my eggs properly too. useless me. >.<
not sure bout jan. but i really enjoyed my dinner. hope she did too.

raining donkeys and monkeys when i'm gg home. had to cab back. den realised dat dad and mom praying tonight. some yearly thingy. and they were waiting fer me to offer joss sticks. oh wells, dad was quite pissed and sorta told mi might as well not come back. but mom was ok. after all, they din tell mi i had to come back early ma. if they did, den better still, can get jan home early as well. l0l.

i'm gonna miss her like crazy. i dunno hw i'm gonna survive this week. but i will. ~I WILL SURVIVE!!! hahaha.

looks like jan is pretty tired today.. all my fault. for making her wake up early on fri and sat. and all e late night chats we had.
yawnzZZ..pretty tired too. time to turn in lo!!

4.5 hrs to wakey wakey.
6 hrs to book in time.

this sucks. or shud i say..this is gonna suck. had sucked , sux , WILL SUCK. lol....
really hope e new yr mood is lingering ard in camp. den can slack. hehe.

back...

back from meeting jan. din meet as long as we planned to.
wanted to meet at 11 in e first place. but decided on 1130 last night so dat she could get more sleep. but even den she couldn make it..cos her dad bot fd..yeah...she had to stay at home to eat.
she called me at 1054 dis morning, told mi she had to eat cos her dad was buying food.
GREAT.
i was juz on e verge of leaving home le..luckily i din. and she said maybe we shud meet at 12 instead. frankly speaking..i was so sian diao. i didn feel like gg out anymore. i mean, y couldn she call mi earlier...like e moment she knew she had to eat at home first and couldn make it in time?? wad if i already stepped out? ugh..i juz know dat i was rather pissed. i din even read her msg after dat...
i was angry..lol. i dunno fer wad...seems quite a small matter to be angry over for. maybe i'm juz temperamental..juz like wad she said.

but i guess its bcos i was so prepared to NOT b late today. i showered , shitted , did my hair , changed all so early in advance. and i was like waiting fer e time to leave home nia. and den wad..she's gonna be so late. and den i knew dat she won b making it punctually at 12...bound to be late de... den its like an hr plus spent with her only.
really very sian diaoZ..

thinkin rationally, it is really not worth it to go all e way dwn dere juz to meet her fer awhile. but on e other hand, i juz couldn help it. no matter hwi felt, i juz felt my legs carryin me to e mrt station. my mind doesn wanna go...my heart do.

it was raining, i missed e bus. i freakin ran in e rain all e way to bedok. juz to see her asap. knowing myself..i won do dat normally.i feel quite dumb doing dat. but oh wells....i did it. bleahx.

when i saw her face, i couldn get angry anymore. i dunno y. juz couldn get angry with her. i cant bring myself to be unhappy with her or wad la. i juz kept quiet. her smile juz melts my heart. (:

and yeah..juz spent our time in coffee bean talking and drinkin only. din do much. ):
but who cares...every sec with her is quality time spent. (:

running into a deficit le...have Xceeded my budget by alot..and i really mean ALOT over 2 months. i really dun dare to draw money le. and i have resorted to taking money outta my drawer to spend le..altho i dun really intend to. so yeah...i have only 30 bucks in my wallet to spend with one wk to go. i dunno how sia. I NEED MONEY!!! how to go out la....argh...
and to make things worse...v day is round e corner. GREAT. ugh.

i dunno, i feel dat it might be wrong to say dis..but, sometimes i dunno if wadever i'm doing for her is worth it not. i dun wanna do too much. afraid dat she might take me for granted. i dunno...haix. i mean, sometimes i feel dat she's gg out/meeting me only becos i want to..and so as to not make me unhappy.and not bcos she feels like it .i dunno...kinda unfair to say dis...maybe its juz becos she doesn show it. i dunno. me and my insecurities.

but i noe la..she wans to meet me de. i can feel it when i see her. (:

kinda regret gg out today. shud hve played golf today. farts.
hands itchy. LOL.

maybe its juz me...i'm a lousy boyfriend. i have been trying my best..but ya...i'm still a lousy boyfriend. how much can i expect frm her when i'm not even good enuff? ):

seeing her fer a short time only these 3 days kinda made me miss her even more la...like haven seen her enuff lor..leaving me more...i dunno la.

but anyways, still glad dat i met her today. if not miserable. :x

can my sIs juz go to hell...

was kinda happy..den fuckin sis spoiled my mood. she promised e com in 15 mins. and she took a darn 1 n a half hr. i'm not gonna give her e com agn. never. and she fuckin threw e bluetooth cable at me. can she juz go and die..i won shed a tear for her.

oh wells, dinner at marina was kinda borinG..was supposed to play pool with ah guan dey all after dinner. but i couldn stand waiting for e whole darn dinner to end, so i left halfway with wen jing dey all. and since ah guan dey all couldn leave yet, i pang sehed dem. went home and met jan fer her dinner at bedok after dat. would have loved to meet her at bugis. but i misunderstood dat she wasn enthusiastic abt meeting me...so i din. lol. sorry dear.

met jan at bugis fer lunch today. i juz knew it..pastamania is gonna suck. i juz hate it...and it disappointed mi once again. haix...oh wells, maybe e prob lies with me..i dunno..haha.
den when jan went for work, met esmond fer pool at parkway. damn shiok. 12 games in a row. was thrashing him at first. decided to be a lil nice and slacken abit fer him. got a lil careless in e end. do 6-6. draw. (:
glad to know dat i aint dat bad after not playing pool fer so lonG. tho not very good still..but i enjoyed. :D

den went practicinG my golF at oCC. not bad too. considering a 3 week lay off. striking e ball ok. hitting fairly straight. however, was hitting shorter. but i chose to believe dat its all due to e strong headwind. lol.
it was also nice to note dat im still rather well knwn ard e club ( or rather notorious..haha ) .
people were greeting me and it juz felt so nice. OCC is still my 2nd home..haha. it juz felt like i belonged there.

meeting jan fer breakfast tml. waiting to tok to her on e phone later. chowz.

really feel like playing golf tml sia. lol, but oh wells...

Grrrr.....

great. was supposed to book out at 4 today. but couldn leave before i sign e goddamn nominal roles to verify and declare dat my information is correct.
and guess where dat damn nominal role is? they haven even prepared it? and guess wad time it was done? 1945. farts.

got mom to pick mi up from occ. den went to occ to wait fer sis to finish up her lesson with chris. i gotta admit my sis is kinda cool. private coaching, national team coaching and school team coaching. golf golf and GOLF. like some professional liddat. but but BUT, dat din stop mi frm feeling a lil sian diao dat she ended late. cos dat means i won be able to reach home in time to get jan some food.
but oh wells, things turned out fine anyways, cos her parents were there fer her. (:

juz woke up frm a slp while watchin tv. and as usual, was in an irritable mood. and guess wad was e first thing dat happened when i came online? jerry msged me, and demanded y i put JEST sux. of course, i snapped at him when he din wanna believe my explanation dat its supposed to be JUST. oh wells, who cares.

sometimes, i juz feel so arrogant. i realli din mean to be so ermms, xia lan. but whenever i think of e grp of dem laughin behind mi, i juz cant stand it. but i guess really, he just hit on me at e wrong time.
i juz told him to get off my back cos i have something else to do. and -ta da- he went offline. guess he juz blocked me off or smth. when i'm supposed to do it first! FFF......ish. i promised jan to cut dwn on vulgar language. lol.
wadeva..guess we ought ta have tea or something together sometime. or everything will juz be over. yeah.

waiting waiting...hehe.

smiles.

dads bro came over dis morninG, den had to make us bring him to HIS sons house. cos his son lives ard our area. and he's not familiar with e area. yep. so we went to my cousins house to bai nian. yep, and got hongbaos..yippeee!! this is an extra bonus, cos i never ever went to his house before!! so its ya.. happy!! (:

den went on to fourth uncles house. his dog is so cute!! :p so nice fur lor.. like carpet lor.

proceeded to meet jan @ amk frm uncle's house. went to shop fer her stuff. she got her stockings and shoe. finally. haha. was a lil apprehensive at first. but realised dat i din really mind..prob bcos its for jan. so yeah, i ventured into e department with her. lol.

had her dinner at projectshop. i personally think e mint tea isn my cup of tea. kinda makes me wanna puke. yep..so i ordered my ice mocha. and i watched jan savour her laksa pesto. it kinda whipped up my appetite slightly. but no...i still couldn eat.

bot famous amos cookies. had been wanting to eat em..but i think i wasn exactly in e right mood to have em today. feeling kinda sick today. :s

went to esplanade to watch fireworks. had e cookies while waitin fer it to start. and suddenly e sky juz went boom boom boom!! it was so B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!!! kinda cool. haven watched fireworks for quite some time lo. so u can say i was kinda fascinated. (:

walked ard abit more after e display. there was this carnival gg on..kinda funny. everyone was staring at e giant statue of e god of wealth like its shooting laser or wad. lol.

sent jan home after dat. wasn feeling very well. but i juz couldn let my darling go home alone. no way. and as expected, slept my way home on 168.

realised i din bring my keys, so had to ring sis to go dwn and open e gate for me. lol..lucky, if she's asleep, i wud have to wake dad or mom up le..

talkin to jan on e phone nw. smiling. -winks- ;)