why is this happeninG??

things haven been very smooth btwn me and her this wk. quarrels after quarrels. wads wrong? i'm nt very sure. quarrels sholuldn exist btwn two pple who love each other so much. perhas its juz e withdrawal symptoms of not being able to see her often enuff. i'm totally addicted.

my mood hasn been good thse days. due to e lack of janyz. ( i'm making her sound like heroin) and kenneth loh is juz making it worst. he's showing some attitude towards me. when its his fucking fault. backstabbing me. and i got a hint of jealousy coming frm him.given e fact dat staff have been treating me fairly well despite e fact dat he backstabbed me which staff gullibly believed. i bet he's jumping with anger in some corner with his scheming plan not working. i cant stand his cheapo-ness , his hypocrism, his everything now. but i'm still talkin to him, because yat hong advidsed me to do so, so as to let others see dat i'm e magnimous one and he's e petty one. but i tell ya, my tolerance is reaching its limits.

quarrelled w jan again. dun wanna talk to her. wanna give her e cold shoulder. but i cant do it. i'm feeling miserable. i juz cant turn my back on my darling.

u asked mi if i wud be happier w/o u...i tell ya, hell NO. i wud be miserable. dats e conclusion i came up with during my sweep today.

life is gonna be hell nowadays..with e general elections coming up and a whole lot of major ops coming in soon. today is HELL day 1. woke up at 4 in e morning for security sweep at bendemeer pri. cham see tong's party and e PAP. its e first time in my life i see this elction thingy gg on. i mus say it was beyond wad i expected. sad to say, it was rather rowdy. but oh wells, full of spirit. lol.

CO parade tml. SiaNzzZZZ. den athletics meet at Changi Naval Base after dat. and i'm gonna miss golf practice agn. hell, been a long time since i touched my clubs. wonder if i still rmb how to hit a golf ball. LOL.

lucky...free from ippt for now!!

luckily for me, i'm not included fer ippt tml. frankl speaking, i'm really not prepared yet. gosh, dunno how long i will take to regain my fit form last yr. or maybe i will never.... ):
oh wells, my body is under construction fer now...with e more constant and effective physical training sessions in camp now. lolx.

oh my oh my, jan juz pissed me off so bad today. when will she stop ever making mi disappointed? i muz admit dat e tot of breakin up flashed in my mind fer a short short while, but i shook it off. no way man. i tink i would die. hmphs, she's e most impt person in my life. NO JAN= NO ME. luv ya lots dear. sorry for pissin u off as well. ):

jan called to ask if she could go out with edward this sat for lunch. come on, i mean i couldn stop her frm meeting her guy frens right/? i dun really wanna become a control freak. not very nice. but on e other hand, i couldn help expressin my unhappiness ( juz slightly) over it.
i mean, its not very nice if they meet my frens outside and i have someone callin me on my phone while i'm on standby in camp tellin me dat my gf's out with another guy in town. yeah, i wud hav already known about it but wad will others think? they wud have tot i might have been made a cuckold and dats not very nice. REALLy. but oh wells,i cant be selfish. e decision still lies with her eventually.

2 days w/o her. its killin me. and driving me to nuts. temper hasn been good. yeah, so stay outta my way.

oh ya, i forgot something. did i ever mention kenneth loh is a bastard??
too angry to add fuel to my fire fer now. i'll elaborate another day. remind mi if i forget.
bye guys.

1st.. !! -grins-

did it for the first time 'TOGETHER' yesterday.

wasn as spectacular as we expected but yeah..not too shabby....
not bad at all. (:

met her fer her break today..had pepper lunch. oh yeah folks, pepper lunch is gonna have a new branch at dhoby ghaut. pepper lunch express i think. specialises in take aways. personally, i feel dat e food fer take aways look and sound better den e original pepper lunches. oh wells, gonna give it a try someday. :p

won b seeing her fer quite sometime. missing her le. ):

*sobs

not dat bad after all.. (:

oh wells, continue from where i stopped. yeah, jan came over dat wednesday. hung ard my house fer a lil while.. ( quite some time in fact ) lol...couldn rmb wad we did except..hmmm. yeah, but i rmbed we rushed out to siglap fer a laz min dinner at thai express. juz arrived in time fer laz order. my soft shell crab thingy was good. yummms.. gotta try some other day again.

yeps. continued my off on thurs. met jan after her work fer dinner before catchin a movie. we had dinner at this rabbity smth place. good food! @ SUPER LOW prices. think i'll bring elias there sometime these days. budgety budgety..hahaZ.
decided to watch a movie to waste time. din regret it....cos we caught a DAMN nice movie. - at least i tot so. lol. watched at e newly renovated cathay cineplex. first of all, service was first class. 2ndly, theatre was damn big, damn nice and damn comfy. thirdly, e movie was good. And last but not leaast, e company! (:

jan came over to my place early on fri morning. we walked maggie ard e linear park outside den on to siglap. dat stupid maggie, came to realise she's a lil hard to walk. too timid la...stupid biatch. LOL. wonder if jan wud ever wanna walk her again not..haha. yep, bot KFC home fer lunch. spent some time together before she proceeded to church while i went over to town to celebrate chong's birthday. despite havin 11 others fer company, non of my better friends were ard. and i bet even if they were, i won have much fun too. TIMES W/O JAN IS TOO BORING. she juz makes my day. lol. yep and so...ya...u folks could have guessed, i gave e overnite stay @ chong's house a miss. rather go home and sleep and prepare to meet my darling e next day.

AnD yeps! SATURDAY! met jan in town this morning. had breakfast at e somerset killiney kopitiam. quite surprised to see so many ppl in town on a sat early morning. lol. yeps, shopped fer her dress fer baptism and almost forgot to turn up fer e movie which we already bot tics. sian..always like dat de. she wud neglect everything once she starts shoppin. ): but ok la, partly my fault as well..failed to rmb. so oh wells, we were late lor. sian. watched TRISTAN AND ISOLDE. ok lar, wud be not bad if not for e draggy parts. went over to her church to watch her being baptised. Mom wasn very happy abt it. but i went anywayz..wud do anything my dear dear wants me to .. (: oh well, she din force me, juz hopedi wud go altho she told me not to when mom wasn happy. but i did. I JUST WANNA MAKE HER HAPPY. (:
kinda boring, guess its bcos i cant understand nuts abt wads gg on. but oh wells, met her parents. had diiner at her place den had supper together at upp serangoon. e porridge was superb. nice nice. (:
so my meeting with my future in laws were ok. good good. :P
her dad sent me home N so here i am. ta da~!!

meeting elias tml before meeting jan after her work. MISSING her already. :(

I luv her so muchie.

have been meeting jan almost everyday since last friday. met jan for awhile during her break on sunday. had big fish with my family after dat. Food's not bad, desserts are great. but..e price sux. its rather ex..so i reckon i gotta stash some cash before gg there in order not to burn a hole in my wallet. lol.

met jan on monday during my nite's off. i have come to realise dat both of us need each other alot alot. both physically and mentally. cant do a day w/o her. and its frustrating to note dat we cant have even hug each other properly in public. kinda weird. but we really wanted to hug each other so much..right darling?
well, it juz goes to show dat no matter how much u dun care abt wad others think, u cant shut urself completely out de, and secondly, not very nice to be smooching and hugging ard in public as well, especially in e presence of kids. LOL.

jan came over yesterday. had gelare ! (: juz felt dat i had to make use of my chance to grab e tuesdday half price offer. such chances don come often. haha..
sad to say, but i gotta lose weight. ippt's coming up again. and i haven trained at all. DIE.

jan's coming over agn later, before gg fer dinner together. well, i hope e weekday meetings can kinda make up fer e lack of time spent togetehr this weekend. but oh wells, wkends are wkends, irreplaceable de. Oh wells, aprils gonna be gone real soon. juz hang on ya? (:

we have alot of happy times together, but lets both try harder to make this already wonderful relationship more wonderful okie? and lets have some HAPPIER times. :D

luv ya. :p

Zoo...MOOO!! (:

sounds kiddish alrighty..but i went to e zoo today!! yippee!!! rather fun actually, despite e small petty arguments we had, i rather enjoyed myself. feels so much like a BOY again.

and i learnt pretty much actually, a rAther educational trip ba...think i learnt more this time rather den my laz pri skool trip. well, at least i understand wad i read now...as compared to pri 1...duh, of course...
....LOL.

tho i missed e sealion show which i kinda wanted to watch deep down and e tiger feeding time slot, i enjoyed myself anywayz. e company i had was enuff. so my darling princess, dun be upset okie? i won blame ya.

next time, its gonna be e NIGHT SAFARI!!! (:
tsk tsk...but i wun mind gg to e zoo agn...sometime later ba...haha.

had ice cream today!! slurps, actually i have been craving fer ice cream for quite some time le...LOL. MMmmmmss...yums. den went down to town for a short walk, which i kinda regretted. juz wished we had found some place to sit down and rest after a days walk ard e zoo.
dumb..yep. i'm dumb...but she aint any smarter..cos she din realise dat we shud juz sit dwn too!! HAHAHA...ok dear, juz jokin...lax okie? muax. :D

had e budget meal at somerset. god knows how e hell bernice found e place. rather ulu pandan lor..given e fact dat its near town...lol.

would have been home much earlier actually. but e reluctancy to leave each other juz made me wanna miss e last bus. how i wish i could juz marry jan and stay together lor. den can save me from e suffering of leaving each other.

JAN JAN JAN. I love u so much.
dun doubt it. U R E ONE. :)

jan's workin tml. sian...sunday w/o her again. april sucks big time. i hate it. and god knows wad my duty forecast will be like in e near future. this is gonna be hard. i need her. I WANT U JAN!! (with and w/o 's' conotations) haha... yeps.
hope i might make it fer her break tml. i so very much wanna see her. MISS HER SO MUCH. ):

time to sleep ba...nights ppl.
lao po wan an. muax. :p

short week...but UNFAIR!!!

on unit off today, but booked out only this morning due to doing standby yesterday. and yeah, yest was engineers formation day. e rest who went to watch e parade went home at ard 10 in e morning. dat means they had approx 1 extra free day!!?? so this is wad i get after being on status duty for 5 consecutive days... this is juz so unfair.

and by e way, if this means dat i can assume i wud be safe this weekend, u r WRONG! JT called me to ask me to go fer sweep this sunday. FUCK>. so many other ppl and he insists dat i was e only one left. dat scheming fella, like i'll belief him. i was tricked once and i won allow another.

yeah, met jan on monday earlier in e week. was supposed to view a display at seletar camp. ran off halfway at around 1430 and went over to jan's house. wasn as bad as she made it out to be. i personally felt dat it was ok lor. (: skipped water parade dat day and maximised my time with her. after spending some time at her place, we went over to changi airport fer dinner. ate chicken rice at this food court. taste reasonably ok, although its a bit too salty..lol.

met jan and she came over to my place on wednesday. was antoher day dat i would be able to come back at 2359. so spent some time together before i booked in. (:

and yeah..today. met jan after my stand down at tampines fer breakfast at Macs. not bad...been about 2 mths since i had macs fer breakfast lo... shoped fer some stuff to eat while we watch vcds later in e day before proceedin home. turned out dat something went wrong with my controller and i couldn switch e dual sound mode off. thus, we played on e PS2 fer awhile. was rather glad she wasn too bored about it. in fact , she enjoyed it. GOOD GOOD. (:
spent awhile more at home before sending her home.

tired...exhausted. need to sleep. haven had a proper sleep fer quite some time le. and i haven had e time and energy to write a proper entry fer quite some time le...cant take it anymore.. night ppl.

meeting jan tml. we'r going to e ZOO ZOO ZOO. :D
LOL.

(:

My first.

Love ya lots dear. Because of you you and U!!

MIss ya laaarh.

Nite nite!

off to join my dear dear in lalaland lo!!





standby later, 6 hrs more to go. hope for no bomb calls.
):
army life....SUX.

hellish life in unit is beginning. i MISS HER.

life frm this month onwards is gonna be hell. u shud have seen my duty forecast fer april, its hell!! they are overworking us!! burning 3 wkends and a total of 14 duties in all. hell...PIONEERS are the LOWEST LIFEFORM IN 36 SCE!!!

made to do all e shit, does everything, and never apppreciated by others. so yeah, have burned 2 sundays in a row le. 3rd one coming up this sunday. come on.. DO I STILL HAVE A LIFE?? my life is beginning to be w/o sundays. damn. jan is e one dats keeping me gg, or i wud have gone berserk lo...LOL.

well, spent last sat in my house. jan came over in e morning and we stayed at home all e way till evening before she proceeded to church while i went to meet elias and esmond fer dinner. din really do much at home but hmmm... :) anyways, if i have neglected u in anyway, i apologise to u dear. ):

haven really seen jan e whole week till yest night. was on off today, therefore, went to meet jan at 10 fer supper. juz felt so nice to see her again. hugs , my darling PRINCESS! (:
ate at chomp chomps, met a guy from my unit selling sugar cane juice.wad a small world.

den today, woke up early in e morning to practice my golf. damn, it was fucked up. serious. need professional help. but luke is gone and i dun noe who's taking over his lessons. lol. yep, den went 3 cut hair. did something which i hv never done before. i made e hairdresser cut my hair REAL SHORT. and i mean short. this juz gives e commanders less reason to catch me for my hair lo!! haha.

met jan at city hall, went to harvey norman suntec to get OUR phone. cost 80 bucks, but i suppose it look quite nice as compared others lo..! had dinner at ken rogers. hmmm..nice. so long never eat liao, feels nice to be eating dat again. den jan made me buy my long wanted zara shirt and she paid fer it. i personally feel dat its Very nicE to recieve such a gift from her but its a wee bit too ex i think. (:

standby on sunday. 3rd sunday w/o jan. miss her so. ):